Something's going on...(Public Secret--MGGLA remix)

"The only secrets are the secrets that keep themselves." -George Bernard Shaw


I guess it's not as secret as we thought;
everyone seems to know. Do they?
How could they, I've been on my guard but...
Must be a gaze held too long, constant nearness
a touch that lingers longer than it used to.
Can all see the smiles when you call my name
or hear the inside jokes with not-so-hidden undertones?
The obvious mystery of the chemistry
that charges any room we're in together-
Can they feel it too?
I look around the room
and am relieved to see
that the rest are oblivious-
Aren't they?
Did I say your name too often or
try too hard to catch your eye?
Do they, could they, know it was unavoidable.
I wouldn't, couldn't have stopped if I'd wanted to.
Powers greater than me have carved out my path
and I, the puppet of fate, the tarot's fool,
follow it, unable and unwilling to control my feet.
I've stopped hiding from myself.
I've stopped hiding from you.
Am I ready to stop hiding from the world?
Too long talking of others before
kindled sparks uncontrollable
When you're speaking can they tell I hear your whisper,
when you shout that I hear your moan
and when you laugh...
When you laugh I hear your breath
in the uneven patterns of ecstasy.
Can you hear mine when I'm quiet?
The way I let your name escape my lips,
a breathy sigh of sensual pleasure,
a sound with soft wings slowly
beating out a steamy rythm.
Oh! Do they know? Would it matter if they did?
Secret's public and accepted; out.
Would it be ok?
Can they see through the facade? The secret?
Or am I just overreacting to looks that mean nothing?
Harmless glances that know nothing about us.
Keep my mine, I'll keep yours.
The candle light dances in your eyes,
and I pretend not to notice.