First: Happy Easter.
Now, down to business.

I was in church last night, and the bishop said that the secular world has it all wrong. Easter is the big holiday, not Christmas. I was thinking about that...what would it be like if Easter was the big one? How long would it take, if ever, that were to change? Is there as big a market for Easter as Christmas? I was talking to my dad about it, and he says yes. I said, you know, you're right. It's all politics. And it is. The easter bunny could be the santa claus of spring, but I don't want to get into that. When you think about how unoriginal the whole thing is it's almost disgusting. All recycled. Pagan holidays. Rebirth, not a new concept. People have been doing it forever. Celebrating spring time, the return of the green things we all take for granted until then, baby animals everywhere. That's been going forever. It's politics because, in an effort to ease "barbarian" peoples into the new system they kept the old holidays and gave them new names. I could go into my theory on catholicism ruining women but that's another rant. It's crazy when you think about it. I don't necessary blame catholicism, I blame the idiots who got it all wrong. Wrong interpretation, wrong reasons for wrong interpretation. People are selfish and self serving, that's why they fucked up. It's human nature. We need to get things right again. Let's go back to the basics, that doesn't mean into the woods (thanks, but no thanks Walden) but back to the do unto others. That's all you really need, and people still aren't getting that. Shiny things can distract you I guess. When I think about all I need to be happy...not much. In fact, I have most of it already. We don't need much. We just want, Mos Def (I think it was him, if not someone correct me) " N**s run past what they need chasin after what they want." Slow down. Open your eyes and look around. You have everything you need already. Now it's up to you to be happy. No one else is going to do that for you. No one else has the power to make you happy. If you can't do it, no one else can do it for you. Realize that.

I realize I completely jumped trains of thought. But hang in there with me. I'll come back to it some other time.

Happiness. We all have a right to be happy. We owe it to ourselves. Sometimes you know what it is that will make you happy but you're too afraid to take that step. For some people it involves finally speaking out about something they were too afraid to acknowledge, whether it's to themselves or to others. I think sometimes the hardest is to admit to yourself that you have to power to make yourself happy. But you do. Sometimes the only thing holding you back from your happiness is yourself. That's too bad. Don't be afraid. If other people don't appreciate it, then you don't need them around. Don't be afraid to be yourself. If I ever learned anything in my life, it's that. You can't make other people happy at the expensive of living in misery. Life is way too short for that. You don't have to be mean, or rude or whatever they'll call it. Be true to yourself, and what you believe is right and you can't go wrong. Unless you hurt someone, you owe nobody an explanation for being who you are. Ok. I'm done preaching. Happy Easter. And...Happy Anniversary to my parents. Thanks for raising me right.